12 September 2008

When It's Over...

I remember going to school after a weekend of read-throughs and talking to my friends. I remeber them saying, "So, when it's over, what are you gonna do?" And I remember saying, "When it's over....I'll probably go back to the same old thing. I mean, nothing will have changed, it's just some more experience." And man was I wrong.

I went back to school, after it was all over. Friends I hadn't seen since last year greeted me with friendly hellos, just like the same old thing. I went through the first half of the day, just thinking about what I had done, how much I had accomplished, and almost getting in trouble for not paying attention in class. And finally, it was lunch! I had seen my other friends at lunch last week, but they were short, not everyone was there due to schedule and book mishaps. So today I walked out to lunch expecting it to be like every other day...

I noticed when I set my backpack down that everyone was there, standing in our little formed circle next to where we ate. They were all laughing, talking of summer memories, and how they already had hours of homework. I walked up nonchalantly and just started giving imput on whatever the conversation had turned to. And my best friend Nicole flipped out, "LAUREN!" shey yelled. Sh hadnt really seen me to much the summer and I was glad that my busy schedule hadn't offended her.

So we continued to talk, even though we only had five minutes of lunch left when it happened. One of my friends turned to me and asked, "So how'd the whole movie thing go?"
"It's still going actually, we're almost done. But it's really no big deal. I mean, when it's over..." I paused. Flashbacks of the weekends of filming ran through my mind like a real of film. I heard everyone's voice joking about some random comment that someone had made. It changed then, to when we were filming the scene when everyone arrives at Molly and Matt's house. They kept flashing and I was finally pulled back into reality when Tessa spoke, "Lauren?" I smiled slightly and continued, "When it's over, things will have changed. I dont know how to explain it to you guys, but, I just have a feeling things will be different." BINGO!

I realize, now that it's over, that things have changed. This experience has changed me, as an actor, and as a person. I now get a better perspective on things, frustrating problems, the loss of a loved one, the relationship between family members. All because of a little fantasy called END. I don't know if I can explain it any better than that as of right now. So for now, thanks, to everyone who made this possible.

I'll get back to you. But for now this is it. This is the END.