A Little Behind..

Okay, so I haven't blogged in awhile. Juggling a day job, weekend drives to OC, and shooting all weekend, kind of forced me to put on the blinders, knuckle down and just do the job.

It's the one thing I do hate about this kind of juggling act. I would rather have my head up, enjoying the shoots and time on set instead of just focusing on how much sleep I'm not getting and trying to not let the work-week stress interfere with the weekend fun.

Man, I need to get out of the office life. (Megan too).

So, now that the shoot is over, I was looking back over the year and realized End is the 10th project I've worked on. It's the 7th I've shot. But 10 projects this year.. it takes me back to May when I was actually carrying around 3-4 scripts at a time.

And all the while, maintaining this exceptionally stressful day job.

I am a fortunate person and I am pleased with nearly every project, and would love to see #11 hit in October (Caryn), but I would give anything to get paid to do this so I can JUST do this.

Megan had a pic of a ball of rubber bands. Unfortunately, everything around my desk is labeled confidential, so I can only assure you my cubicle life is NOT the big plan I had for myself when I ditched the home state and decided to endure the high-level field that is filmmaking.

I am just so looking foward to that glorious day when I can sit by a pool, sipping a daquari, rememebering how much I used to whine about the day job, little knowing those days would soon be behind me..

Ah, what a sweet daquari that will be..

When It's Over...

I remember going to school after a weekend of read-throughs and talking to my friends. I remeber them saying, "So, when it's over, what are you gonna do?" And I remember saying, "When it's over....I'll probably go back to the same old thing. I mean, nothing will have changed, it's just some more experience." And man was I wrong.

I went back to school, after it was all over. Friends I hadn't seen since last year greeted me with friendly hellos, just like the same old thing. I went through the first half of the day, just thinking about what I had done, how much I had accomplished, and almost getting in trouble for not paying attention in class. And finally, it was lunch! I had seen my other friends at lunch last week, but they were short, not everyone was there due to schedule and book mishaps. So today I walked out to lunch expecting it to be like every other day...

I noticed when I set my backpack down that everyone was there, standing in our little formed circle next to where we ate. They were all laughing, talking of summer memories, and how they already had hours of homework. I walked up nonchalantly and just started giving imput on whatever the conversation had turned to. And my best friend Nicole flipped out, "LAUREN!" shey yelled. Sh hadnt really seen me to much the summer and I was glad that my busy schedule hadn't offended her.

So we continued to talk, even though we only had five minutes of lunch left when it happened. One of my friends turned to me and asked, "So how'd the whole movie thing go?"
"It's still going actually, we're almost done. But it's really no big deal. I mean, when it's over..." I paused. Flashbacks of the weekends of filming ran through my mind like a real of film. I heard everyone's voice joking about some random comment that someone had made. It changed then, to when we were filming the scene when everyone arrives at Molly and Matt's house. They kept flashing and I was finally pulled back into reality when Tessa spoke, "Lauren?" I smiled slightly and continued, "When it's over, things will have changed. I dont know how to explain it to you guys, but, I just have a feeling things will be different." BINGO!

I realize, now that it's over, that things have changed. This experience has changed me, as an actor, and as a person. I now get a better perspective on things, frustrating problems, the loss of a loved one, the relationship between family members. All because of a little fantasy called END. I don't know if I can explain it any better than that as of right now. So for now, thanks, to everyone who made this possible.

I'll get back to you. But for now this is it. This is the END.

The photo shoot

Well... I don't know if it was just me, or the sadness of the experience being over or what... But that photo shoot seemed pretty grueling... I was pretty tired I think from the early 1.30pm call time and someone took the last energy drink right before my eyes! I was shattered by the time we were done... I supposed that it didn't help matters that for every photo I was tensing my arms as much a humanly possible so as not to be dwarfed my my much manlier cast mate. Or that we were passing around cards etc to sign for people in such a stealthy way that EVERYONE knew what was going on... Like I said maybe it was just me but it felt like we'd just done another days shooting... I wish :(

Bring on the editing, bring on the poster, bring on the... END! 

Then bring on the sequel ;)